Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Study mode...

Annoucement: Study mode in progress. Hence, all work involving sweeping my e-house will be halted.

N.B - Picture stolen from a friend's blog... sorry ye... ^_^


Tp nak blogging gaks!! But I need to study..

til then..

"O Allah, only to You we worship, and only to You, we ask for help... Help us O Lord, O Most Merciful..." Ameen

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I've been tagged!

Though I don't understand the whole purpose of these things... but I guess it's a fun thing to do... hmm trying to be sweet to my sweet 2 sisters... :D

Roti Canai Mamak

Rendang my mom

Serunding my mom

Karipap besar atuk ngan sambal die... (atuk.. mane aci atuk masak time Munirah xde kat umah!!! Uwaaa)

Ikan bilis kicap ayah (tp ayah dh lame gile x buat since ibu dh blaja camne nak masak from ayah.. :()

Study (man... I'm a nerd!) - not necessarily academic kan??

Cook and bake

Staring at the sky




Read the Qur'an and end up crying again

Go and take a walk/jod and end up crying again

Talk to my mom and cry again

Tell people to shut up - oh, I wish I can do this... but that would be mean to the people around me..


Cult dancing (don't ask!)

Read people's blogs

Smile and BIG GRIN :D


Hug me, call me, do little things for me, smile at me and... be yourself ;)

Learn a lot of things

Turn into a good Daei - the best one I can be

Me marrying someone I love (erks~~)

My friends' weddings

Live life under the shade of the Qur'an - Subhanallah.... :)

Various ideas are running in my head... but it would be fatal if they get out...

Ku berlari (Firdaus n Akbar n Cat Farish)

When you believe (Mariah Carey n sape ye lg sorang?)

Standing in the Eyes of the World

Wajah (Jaclyn Victor)

Croation Rhapsody (Maksim)

oh, dh 5.... though semenanye xde la sgt... but some songs just push you further... ain't it?

Erm... owh...can't think of any right now... I guess the newly-weds (2 people), my housemates (3 people...) my friends.. (eh, dh terinfinity plak... hehe)

Owh... and I have to do someone else's tag...


Penat la... plus ade homework anatomy x siap lg..

"Allahumma Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir..." Ameen

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Walking Down Memory Lane

I had the same title back in my old blog on Friendster... but since my Fs network has expanded, I think it would be a pain for other people, who do not know me well, but kept on receiving emails (or spams!) saying that I've updated my blog. And, since I've changed direction of my rattlings, I presume it would be most proper to transfer my energy here.

Then, today, a person went to my old blog, and left a comment. I think I know who that person is, and I really appreciate her comment. It has been like... 2 years?? since my last entry on that blog... emm no. 1 year I think. coz when I was reading back my blog.. and walk down memory lane, I notices it was during my 3 months pension from studying... well, maybe just 2 month coz 1 month I spent on IChO in Russia.

Hmm... looking back, I actually miss me mumbling and rattling about the little-est thing in life. coz I keep the big ones to myself... and usually, the big ones are the sad ones... oops! Negative thinking.

No, I think my big-sad-moments aren't to be shareed with people. But my super-duper-uber-happy-euphoric moments are for anyone to know. Lol.


it's 10.47am on this computer at cluster comel in Worsley. And I have to get back to studying... which was the thing I was suppose to do... not blogging..


but a verse to ponder upon:
"So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief. Verily, with every difficulty there is relief. Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labour hard. And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention." (Al-Insyirah 94:5-8)

I just love this surah... doesn't everyone?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

New Enlightenment

It's a new day. Alhamdulillah. I'm given the chance to live for another.

Yet, I woke up LATE!!! And continued sleeping underneath my comfy 13.5 tog duvet. Aargh!! How I'm regretting it. Astaghfirullah.



Sunday, November 9, 2008

What a sweet memory...or just a mind play?

Today is November 9th.

Last updated: October 11th. Ok la Cik jiran sebelah... less than a month :D

I wanted to share this memory I have actually. I had it about 2 weeks ago (I think) when I was lying in bed.

I was asleep. Soundly. At night. I dreamt about shopping with my mom and my lil sis (two most wonderful girls I have in my life... can't live without them 2... including my big sis of course). In that dream, I was so happy... thinking that I haven't spoken to my mom for quite some time. And I can actually feel it in my 'real life' heart. Seriously. Coz it was so vivid.

Then, I had a dream of another friend. A friend whom I haven't spoken to since 6 months ago. A friend that usually I'm not close to, never close to. But I cherish her presence... Well, in that dream, we were actually talking... a very x1000 friendly talk (I can't remember about what) but basically, we both were laughing, and the feeling was as if we have known each other for years... without any conflicts between us. I was elated in that dream. I was happy. She was happy. She was laughing and smiling... I was even happier.


It was merely a dream.

That did not happen in real life.

It was a mind play.

Will it ever? I don't know. I pray for it.

Only Allah knows...

"O Allah, if it's for the best, let it happen with ease..." Ameen.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Andai ku tahu...

This a video I found on youtube. Emm... the song was a hit back in summer (or was it last year? Nvm..) So, I was taking a break from Cranial nerves (Obor-Obor Omar tak tertinggal atas file, actually Gary viewed some houses... Hahaha.. my own mnemonics :D ), and decided to listen to this song, while watching its video clip.

There was the band, and a few kids, trying to do graffiti and vandalising the roads and walls. Then, when the Graffiti was done, I realised something. They didn't vandalise the roads or walls, they just express their dreams. One boy drew a bed on the road and actually slept on it. One boy drew a bicycle on the wall. One of the sweetest thing (and most sad) was a boy who drew out a family of 3, and the 4th was him, trying to hold the imaginary hand of (I think) the father.

Awww... sweet nye these kids...

Suddenly I remembered one Surah from the Holy Qur'an:

1. By the Glorious Morning Light,

2. And by the Night when it is still,-

3. Thy Guardian-Lord hath not forsaken thee, nor is He displeased.

4. And verily the Hereafter will be better for thee than the present.

5. And soon will thy Guardian-Lord give thee (that wherewith) thou shalt be well-pleased.

6. Did He not find thee an orphan and give thee shelter (and care)?

7. And He found thee wandering, and He gave thee guidance.

8. And He found thee in need, and made thee independent.

9. Therefore, treat not the orphan with harshness,

10. Nor repulse the petitioner (unheard);

11. But the bounty of the Lord - rehearse and proclaim!

How sweet Allah is isn't it?? Subhanallah...

Ya Latiff, soften our hearts with the remembrance of you...


Monday, September 15, 2008

Leaving...on a jet plane...

Feel as if it was yesterday that I wrote (I think I did) an entry about leaving this wonderful place..

Sad. Yes.

Happy. Erm...

Excited. Erm...

Worried. Definitely.

Overwhelmed. A must.

When I flew off to Heathrow last year on Sept 12th, I've set an intention. My journey to the UK was not only to study Medicine. But to trace the steps of my parents. My beloved Ayah n Ibu. Ibu used to tell (though not much) about how much she learned whilst studying (and after getting married!). Learned not only the pure science which after researches and discoveries, brings us closer to Allah but the social science as well. Wondering how Ayah can do well in his studies (and helped another fellow scoring an A for his project) meanwhile going here an there every week, just to gain he thought was the best investment for the future.

I want to feel what they felt. I want to know what they knew. I want to do what they did. Little that I know, with all that, I must carry a responsibility. A responsibility that I thought it was easy. One that I thought I could do it. So naive was I.

-to be continued...-

When the responsibility came, I was scared. I was flabergasted. Truth is, I wanted a way out. But there's only two way out. One, death. Second, death as well. But the first one, dying

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Updating the Updates


Alhamdulillah... at last my fingers are actually clicking fast on the keyboards to write an entry.. Hohoho.. sorry friends... I was so busy that I only gathered the ideas to write but never had the chance to actually write them.


Can you actually believe that it's almost 4 months since my last entry?? I had a glinch to delete this blog but I jsut can't bear losing one platform for me to share with people. Subhanallah.. this summer holiday had been tremendously great... From coming back to Malaysia all by myself, to Cambodia, to Brunei, to Kelantan and Terengganu, day trips back to Johor and Perak (when my atuk almost cried when I said I;m going back to KL in a few hours...) not forgetting night trips to Gambang to visit my Kaklong and cutey boy Ahmad, and the best of all, meeting my sisters and all the hearts I've met...

[taking a few deep breaths~~]

Let's see..

oops... my dad's calling everyone to go to sleep.. haha

ok, what I'll do is that I'll retrace my summer journeys... and post them one by one.. :D

Friday, May 23, 2008

Seorang Budak Gemok

Allow me to publish this post in Malay...

Ade seorang budak gemok, kulitnya licin, gebu dan manis (dan kaler kulitnya macam kulit kayu manis... Hahaha)

[Haish~~ xleh nak continue tulis... Let the pictures speak for themselves...]

**Budak gemok kate: Nak aaapppeee??? -In a very annoyed way**

**Budak gemok tgk Ummi dia...pastu die kate: Ummi, Ahmad...comel x??**

**Budak gemok macam takut je...GGgggrrrr**

**Budak gemok memikirkan masa depan...Ummi, nak jadi PM boleh??**

**La... tunggu turn main ngan GrandPa rupenye.. chehs**

Inilah dia sketsa kehidupan budak gemok yang dimanjakan sampai jadi gemok. Budak gemok yang bernama Ahmad Ibrahim Shahmi, umo 7 bulan, 6 hari

Waaa....!!!! Nak balik!!!

Sunday, May 18, 2008


I just love this song. Such a nice, inspiring piece that never fails to make me shed tears...

It reminds me of how fortunate I am. How fortunate we all are...which gives us no room to care less for others

I miss my PDK trip. Among the best things that happened in KMB ^_^

Friday, May 9, 2008

Remembering Our Brothers and Sisters...

Today is the 60th Year of the Nakba a.k.a catastrophe. Well, that's for us Muslims and for those who love peace and harmony, not forgetting the I-am-a-human-with heart. Coz for those who are heartless, they'll go and say..."Hey!!! It's the independence day today!!! It's Israel's 60th birthday!!!"

Erm... who is Israel??

Does it exist??

Not in my dictionary NO!! Definitely not.

Alright, it has a capital city, it has it's own economy, people living there is called Israelis, and it has boundaries. I mean literally. Literally and physically, all around.

Someone on my Facebook gave me this video
[ooops.. it's kinda lost... But I'll try and find it again]

Well, basically, imagine it being a video like have showing about the Palestinians... they have it for them..

And they go and spread it to the world!! I bet this person know I'm a Muslim as I'm wearing the hijab. And they go and spread their video to everyone. I bet now (since even my friends in Malaysia are using FB... though I have no slightest idea why...) people around the world has seen the video. But how many people have seen the lives of the Palestinians??

During ROQ last 2 weeks, a guy from ... (Amnesty I think??) shared with us his experiences whilst there. He showed us a few houses that is annexed by the apartheid wall... And these are houses and shops. What about schools and villages?? Farms??

Imagine this. You have a new garden in your front and backyard...you can have a picnic, BBQ, and even sunbathing (since the weather's so nice!). You were enjoying ur life until one day, a truck came with concrete slabs, and divide your garden into 2 parts, the smaller one's for you. The bigger portion, they say that they need to expand the road. We need the space M'am. It's for everyone's uses.

Everyone my foot! (Alhamdulillah swearing is not my cup of tea!)

Palestinians can't walk on certain roads.

Palestinians can't drive on certain roads.

Palestinians have to climb wall to see their families and friends who WERE only 5 metres away!

People must be crazy thinking how the Jews have suffered back in the past.

So, in order to have 'pity' on these minorities of the world's population, you go and inflict pain and agony on someone else?

Since they don't have a land to stay, you go and take other people's land. How 'humane' is that?

You call people throwing stones as terrorists. But tell me, the tank against a few pebbles of stones... who's the terrorist?

Huh.. I don't think I can write anymore coz I feel like my chest is blowing up!! So I'm gonna share with you the doa of a Sheikh for Masjdil Haram (I know many have seen this).

All the Palestinians ask from us is to bring Islam back. Only then shall Palestinians be free. Let them fight the tanks with their hands and stones. Let's do our part. Let's bring Islam back.

With Islam Umar al-Khattab freed Palestine from the Romans... and again with Islam, Salahuddin al-Ayyubi freed Palestine from the Crusades... and with Islam, we shall free Palestine!!

O Allah, only from you we ask for strength...

note to self: Must equip self with Arabic to understand the doa Qunut of the Imam in Leeds Grand Mosque during Ramadhan. I wonder why everyone cries when the Imam recite the dua... :-?

Sunday, May 4, 2008

I wish...

I wish I can say it
How you have stabbed me
How you've crushed me
How you've made my tears flow

But it will make things worse
It will eat myself
And it will eat you
And that is much more painful
Too painful that I can't bare

I wish I can tell you
How much you mean to me
How precious you are

I wish I can tell you
That all I asked was for you to look at me in the eye
And share what's inside your heart

But it's all just few wishes
For you

When I looked at the mirror
I see myself
How I wish I can tell others how I feel
How heavy this is
Burdening inside my heart

I wish I can lament
I wish I can escape
I wish I can fly free
I wish I can smile
Not just cry
Again, these are just wishes

I know that you will listen
But it's me who cannot tell
I know you will care
But it's me who is to arrogant

But don't worry
Coz I have found a place to share my feelings
I can share it with someone who would listen
And who would reply a.s.a.p with beautiful words
Words that I myself can't describe

But with Him in my heart
I know I don't have to tell
Not to anyone, Not to anything

O Allah, only to you I can ask for my wishes. Let this heart be yours, and only yours... Grant me peace since you are the Most Peaceful. Grant me strength since you are the Strongest. Grant me power since you are the most Powerful. Grant me sincerity since you are the Most Sincere...

Friday, April 11, 2008

Shifting paradigm...

Hmm... bile tetibe hati ni rase down, ade je bende yang naikkan semangat balik...^_^ (indahnya hidup bersama Ilahi. He plans my life ways I cannot imagine. I believe, He know best.. and He'll give me the best)

Videos to share..
Part 1

Part 2


[ps: kali ni curik verses from the clip ye...huhu..]

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Jaulah Turkey

Another journey... now to the centre of the globe. I've been to the East, I'm now in West, I've been to the North, and my heart is in the South. So, what's left?? The Centre.

Though some may differ, I think I can say it (just to make it fit into my 'ayat-ayat puitis' above ^_^)


When I went to Turkey, I really agree with the saying 'jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan' (or something like that. The few seatings with my sisters here in Leeds touched on accepting Allah's plan as He is the Best Planner. He gives the best for us no matter how we hate it or no matter how we see it as the worst thing that can happen. Alhamdulillah, I praised all my sisters who did not complain a single bit. Instead, we were all really positive and never lose hope. Subhanallah, how wonderful the feeling was.

People who supported us from far, thank you so much. Though you guys may pity or emphatize us, I salute my jaulah-mates more... SUKE SGT!!!

And I also learn that friendship does not fade... I met my friend whom I never seen since I was in Form 3. And she still recognizes me.. ohohoho.. the sad part is I can't spend much time with her... isk isk isk...

Hmm... subhanallah... How great Allah is. His plan is much better than ours. I think if we go there for 4 days, our money will be gone before we knew it.. Ahahaha..

Feel like I'm missing a point... but nonetheless, if only I can show my heart and let others have a look, surely it will be much better...


Too Many Things, Too Little Time

Frankly, I have loads on my mind that I really want to share. But this time, I think I really wanna be serious, coz I've learnt valuable things that I just can't let people take it easy. So, I have to be serious. Hence, I think I'll draft my post so that this go chronologically...

make sense??

me being serious??

why not??

Thursday, March 13, 2008


Futur...(no, I didn't misspell future)

This is what I'm afraid off. The holiday's coming. No more studies. No more going here and there, bz buzzing around.

So much time???

I am scared of being relaxed. What am I doing when I'm relaxing? Am I wasting time? Or am I doing what is necessary? What IS necessary??

Isk isk isk... jgnlah aku futur...

Jgnlah aku futur...

When the Enzymes Saturate...

So, when the enzyme saturate, Vmax is reached, all of the active site are fully occupied. That leaves me : Simply saturated!!

It's Thursday, my most awaited day. Know y?? Bcoz it's the last day of the term!!!! I just can't believe that I've survived two terms here in Leeds Uni... yg ala-ala KMB gitu.. nonetheless, I survived the two-year treacherous torture in KMB successfully (alhamdulillah!), why can't I do the same here?? Plus, having had 2 years experience, 5 years would b nothing, innit?


But, before I can enjoy my Spring Days (which include spring cleaning of my 'den') [eh, den is solely for pigs ah?? hope not!) I have formative exams coming. And it's integrated! And I have exactly 3 hours before my battle. Aiyah, but this one is just like fighting with a plastic sword.

There's a risk, but you won't get killed.

A reason for me not studying??


I felt so guilty. I don't wanna study for the sake of the exams. I want to study coz I want to, I need to. However, when I flipped (just flipping.. not exactly reading) through my notes (BMS from last term), I don't have a clue what it says... So I flipped through a few, then moved to I&P, read the first sentence, on my bed, and suddenly (and intentionally) dozed off.


Guilty as I can be, I'm praying hard Allah doesn't take His rahmah away. He gave me peace during and after my Transport Summative...Please Allah, don't take it away. I need it all the time...

So, Transport done. But I should not forget that there's more in the future.

Right after the exams, my sweet uti gave me a piece of the Qur'an (not literally)

"Verily, with every difficulty there is relief. Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labour hard, And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention." (Ad-Dhuha 94: 6-8)

O Allah, I know you have plans for me...I know it's the best for me. Please don't let me go.. Don't let me go away...

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Sekolah Angkatku...

This is a younger sibling of my school. Sekolah Rendah Islam Al-Amin Kuala Terengganu. It is a home (I mean home!) to young aspiring students. Currently, we are collecting money and equipments to fund the school's project to improve amenities and also to build a permanent school complex. We have the land, now we need the pegs, piles and walls.

Hence, I'm calling everyone to come forward and support this school... It reminds me of the school I went to, the school that shaped me into who I am today... my sweetest memories were there.

How many of you still thinks about you old school?? Primary school may not be significant but truthfully, that's where you learn most and had the joyous moments in life (I remembered spanking my classmates for being so naughty!! Hahaha)

Anyhow, donations can be made online... (UK residents)
Name : Miss S N A Ibrahim
Account no : 61631691
Sort code : 402729
Reference : Sekolah Angkat AlAmin

And for Malaysia...
Untuk keterangan lanjut, sila hubungi:
  1. Abdul Aziz bin Abdullah (Pengerusi ALP – Tel: 013-9837079)
  2. Ahmad Sabri bin Mohd. Yazid (Timb. Pengerusi ALP – Tel: 019-9880424)
  3. Rosidi bin Ali (Setiausaha ALP – Tel: 012-9588916)
  4. Munawar bin Mohamad (Guru Besar SRIAAKT – Tel: 013-9273557)
  5. SRIAAKT (Pejabat – Tel/Faks: 09-6662061)
And in case anyone has any questions, please feel free to email sekolahangkatalamin@yahoo.com

Further details, click here.

Indeed, Allah will reward those who sacrifice their lives and wealth in the path of Jihad, with the Everlasting Heaven and all the bounty in it... Subhanallah...

[sorry, lupe plak ayat mane satu..]

Diary Earthquake...

This was suppose to be my premier post for MSM North West blog. However, since it was written at 2am in the morning, it didn't get posted since everyone else was asleep or at least, the person I tried to contact was offline. So, here it is... (a bit outdated.. I know.. but that's the point. The point is to ponder upon each and every event that happens in our lives...-tetibe rase mcm PPD exercise plaks...)

Tepat pukul 12.56, gegarannya dirasakan amat kuat. Adakah ia kerana angin yang sudah beberapa hari menyatakan hasrat ingin menjadikan kami ’superman’? Namun, angin tidak bersuara malam ini.

Rumahku bagai didodoi ke depan, ke belakang, membuatkan aku yang sedang lena terjaga. Terkejut. Angin? Tiada bunyi? Pelik.

Gegaran dirasakan selama 7 saat. Aku sudah membayangkan yang terburuk. Bolehkah ia terjadi di negara maju ini? Bolehkah ia terjadi di sebuah negara makmur dan tenang?

Setelah seketika, benarlah apa yang ku sangka. Gegaran yang benar berskala 4.7 di skala Richter.

Click here for details.

Astaghfirullah... mungkin ianya satu peringatan dari Yang Maha Esa. Hanya dengan sedikit gegaran, jantungku bagai nak berehat. Apetah lagi apabila digegarkan oleh Al-Zilzal? Apetah lagi apabila Bumi mendatangkan khabarnya? Nauzubillah...sungguh tak ingin aku berda di situ.

Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Penyayang.

  1. Apabila bumi digoncangkan dengan goncangan yang dahsyat
  2. dan bumi telah mengeluarkan beban-beban (yang dikandungnya) yang berat
  3. dan, manusia bertanya, ”Apa yang terjadi dengan bumi ini?”
  4. Pada hari itu bumi menyampaikan beritanya,
  5. kerana sesungguhnya Tuhanmu telah memerintahkan(yang demikian itu) kepadanya
  6. Pada hari itu manusia keluar dari kuburnya dalam keadaan berkelompok-kelompok, untuk diperlihatkan kepada meraka (balasan) semua perbuatannya
  7. Maka barang siapa mengerjakan kebaikan sebesar zarah, nescaya dia akan melihat (balasan)nya
  8. dan barang siapa mengerjakan kejahatan sebesar zarah, nescaya dia akan melihat (balasan)nya

Al-Zalzalah (99: 1-8)

Marilah sama-sama kita beristighfar... renungkan kejadian alam yang sesungguhnya, merupakan peringatan bagi mereka yang peduli...


Wednesday, February 13, 2008


I really want to share something...but not right now. Emotionally unstable. Gotta sort that out first...

O Allah, ease this life for me...

Signing off before this place gets flooded...

Sunday, February 3, 2008

I have to stop being mad

Oh God...

I took time off study... (waa.. satu amalan : TICK!!!) to read a few blogs...

How wonderful people can share their thoughts and feelings with other kn? Hihihi, a blessing Allah gave to them so that they won't feel lonely...


Don't ask if you don't wanna be shun away...

(Doakan my friend who is really in pain...I hope she gets well...I hope she gets my virus of optimism instead of this influenza stuck in my nose!!)



In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

I was reading my previous post, and the comments as well... Reminiscing the days when I felt so down. But somehow, someone must knew what happened. Who??

He is the Most Supreme, the Carer, the Guide.

He is the Most Romantic Lover of All... uuuu... how I wish I can repay the amount of things He gave me. Not only He gave me love, He gave me letters as well. He told me to read them as much as possible though sometimes I am too lazy... He asked me to seek Him at least 5 times a day. These are the moments when I feel closest to Him. My undivided attention, and His...

Subhanallah... how great this lover is. I know He has a lot of lovers... Some of them love Him more than I do. But I am never jealous as He is always there when I need Him... Sometimes, I feel guilty coz sometimes I'm not loyal to Him. Sometimes I come late to our dates. Sometimes, I even miss celebrations in the morning where He had prepared a few hours for me to be alone with Him.

Nonetheless, He never dumped me. I prayed He never will. I longed for Him. Like a warrior craving for matrydom, that is how this little girl wishes to meet her lover...

But come to think about it, am I prepared to meet Him?

Astaghfirullah... I've done so many mistakes... Can He still forgive me? Will He look at me with mercy when we meet?

O Allah... please help this little girl find her way... her way towards that particular position beside You, the place that You've reserved for your most beloved servants..Let me be one of them.

O Allah, please make my heart at ease as I know, only those hearts at ease may be with you.. Please Allah, invite me to your garden... Let me be part of those you love, and they love you..

"(To the righteous soul will be said:) "O (thou) soul, in (complete) rest and satisfaction! Come back thou to thy Lord,- well pleased (thyself), and well-pleasing unto Him! 'Enter thou, then, among My devotees! Yea, enter thou My Heaven!'" (Al-Fajr 89: 27-30)

Friday, January 11, 2008


Hmm... got my first Summative Result today. BMS-1 exams which we took the week before holiday started. Let's just say it is as expected, alhamdulillah. Well, I didn't do well in the MCQ questions... huhuhu... thanx to last minute study.

Congrats to those who got better than expected.

Firstly I was thinking of feeling down. Then, suddenly, balik2 je, someone gave me an offline message. Munirah the Mighty. I am mighty?? Huhu, such a sweet person, walau jauh di mata...

hihi...wanna take a look what that person gave me??? Click here

Well, I was reading the Qur'an just one and stumbled upon another ayat-ayat cinta:

"But if they turn away, Say: "(Allah) sufficeth me: there is no god but He: On Him is my trust,- He the Lord of the Throne (of Glory) Supreme!" (At-Taubah 9:129)

Allah is enough for me. Allah is enough.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Patut ke??

I'm just wondering. Allah s.w.t gave us hearts to feel. He gave us heart to love, to cherish, and most important of all, to be His servant...

But our hearts : Can we control it? Can we tell it not to be 'terasa' when someone does something you're not quite agree with? Can we tell it to be very happy, when someone hurts it? Can we...??

Or should I ask... should we??

Yes, everyone makes mistakes. But when you have tried your best to change, tried your best to be strong, tried your best to make your heart 'immune' to these 'arrows' that will crush it, SHOULD you terasa hati??

Patut ke kt rase jealous kalo kawan kt lebih menyenangi kawan yg die baru kenal??
Patut ke kt terase hati bile kawan baru kenal tu asyik ngan kawan kt je.. tp ngan kt x?
Patut ke kt terase hati kalo kawan kt cakap bnyk ngan kawan baru die, tp ngan kt die buat cold treatment? 10 patah kt tanye 1 patah pon x jawab?
Patut ke kt terasa hati pd mulanya???

Salah ke untuk terase hati? Salah ke utk kecil hati? Salah ke pendam dalam diri, tapi in the end sakit hati? Salah ke kt x bagitau kawan kt kt terase hati? Salah ke kt wish die tahu sendiri iwithout telling her the real deal??

Patut ke kt x bagitau?

Astaghfirullah.... salah ke utk kt kecik hati??

Ya Allah,lembutkan lah hati ku ya Allah, lembutkan hatiku ya Allah... sesungguhnya, Engkaulah pemilik hati ini ya Allah, lembutkan ia...... Ameen