Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Apabila aku jatuh cinta...


Insya-Allah, entri kali ni dlm bahasa Melayu. Sebab?

Sebab dalam bahasa Melayu saya pandai jiwang sikit. Dan puitis sikit.

Dan kali ini, saya nak mengumumkan, saya telah jatuh cinta. Ahaks!

Semuanya bermula pada Disember 2007. Pertama kali melangkah ke Nottingham. X igt pergi ngan sape. Yg igt, esok paginya, naik train ke Loughborough. X lame. Sekejap je.

Sampainya di Loughborough, di situlah bermulanya kisahku. Kisah ku jatuh cinta.

Ku jatuh cinta pada keramahannya. Ku jatuh cinta pada kekuatannya. Ku jatuh cinta pada semangatnya.

Ku doakan agar cinta ini sentiasa mekar di hatiku, malah semakin mekar dan mengembang, agar ku dapat salurkan cinta ini pada generasi seterusnya. Insya-Allah.

Bagaimana ku boleh jatuh cinta>

Jawapannya di sini:

Mungkin nanti, awak pun akan jatuh cinta ^_^

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

A Safety Pin


I'm talking about a safety pin?


My summer is (although I believe it's best for me) a nightmare. I couldn't join my little sisters who had fun during the first gathering as I have my brother's wedding the weekend after I got back. I couldn't join the massive gathering they had in a land far away called Kelantan as my other brother's wedding is coming up. Sigh~~ I bet they have collected so many precious pearls, and I guess most of it, they can't share it with me coz I'll need my own pearls to move on.

So, in the search for my own pearls, I turned to the sea of knowledge and love, just an hour from my home. I went to see my dear sisters, big and small, for a day. Little that I expect, that it would such a nice gathering, whilst everyone was in Kelantan having fun.

Simple but nice, got to meet my soon-to-be little sister, and her cousin as well, or and far away cousins as well.

And it was time to pray, I stood and started. My tudung was the slippery one. But I thought since it is quite labuh I wouldn't have any problem preventing it from slipping down as I sujud onto the floor...nope. dead wrong. it slipped. my khusyu' was gone. until suddenly, someone came to me from behind, and pinned my tudung to my baju, altogether preventing it from slipping.


I don't know. One thing I know is that, she loves me so dearly that she does not want my prayers to just go in the dustbin. I couldn't find her as I don't know who she is.

Owh, Subhanallah. How she has touched my heart with just a safety pin.

Ya Allah, I pray for my sister. Let the kindness that she has done become her key to you Paradise... ameen...

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Azam tahun baru


My new year will start on 18th of June, 2009.

And I think I want to have a new aims for the year.

Which - I can't tell you coz if I do, and I don't do it, then I'll be lying and consequently cursed throughout my life. [scary huh??]

Anyways, it's 21 hours til our Lower Limb spot test exam. Can't wait to get through it, but I'm so freaking out that I can't look at my notes anymore...


Allahumma Rabbi yassir wa la tuassir, ya Rahman, Ya Rahim, Ya Zal Jalali wal Ikram...

ya Allah, permudahkanlah uruan daei kecilMu di Leeds ini....

Sunday, May 31, 2009


In one of my previous entries, I came out with a list of signs and symptoms of examingitis. Of which, I'm having one - blog-hopping.

And when I hop, I get tagged.... here goes..

1. Copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.

2. Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ini:
- Met her during Secondary school... or more like tuition classes for me. A 3-month getting-to-know...friends with her til today
- She's married, and I'm not [erks~~]
- Lovely bubbly person
- Will bang you in the head if you cross with her
- Has a ver very very big heart...[which fitted me in just nicely :P]

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/ hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya:

- I've just turned 21!!! [but this time, I'm not really sad about growing up...]

4. Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka:
I can only choose one coz I've left blogging for quite some time. But when I think of blogging, I'll think of her.

Iman-chan - who keeps up a wonderful blog

tp nak tambah kakak kak kauthar jugak sbb birthday die arini

nak kak ain jugak coz she wrote a sweet entry recently

to wan mai coz when I read her blog, I'll always terponder... [though mcm x penah tinggal je my ponder tu...]

then to my lil sis, yg xde blog but she found mine by google-ing for it [sabo je la adikku sorang ni..]

to my big sis who left blogging some time ago... but I bet she has another since she has some flare in writing

to kak aisyah Z... who reads a lot, and writes a lot..[bile la nak jadi mcm die ni??]

and nak kasi award to kekja gak... although mebe blog die dh x terupdate, the sweetness of her words mesti buat diri rase mcm nak tutup muka n masuk duvet

can't find no 9.

and no 10 - back to my dear friend syaz - who tagged me a month ago, but didn't realize it...and she tagged me again for this one...



[back to study mode]

Another Mujahid Born...



wallahu Akbar!

Time: 0336 Hrs

Location: St. James's Hospital

Target: Aiman Wafiy bin Ahmad Farid

Status: Born

Whoa!! Aiman Wafiy is born!!!

small print: eid milah to auntie kauthar jugak..[ps aiman, nnt besar jgn perangai cam auntie kauthar tau!! sian mummy nnt...]

small print: aiman wafiy is kak hajar's son.

For my Dad


suddenly I felt like dedicating this entry to my dad.

This is his 49th year. It's not his birthday yet...it's months away.

But I remembered, last year. I touched down in KLIA. Was waiting for my oversized, over weight bad to get to the conveyor belt that I saw one person. I knew him by heart.


It was a man I call Ayah.

Ayah dr kecik lg munirah panggil ayah...

time kecik2, kalau tgh tgk tv, mesti nak duduk ngan ayah. Kalo ayah bersila, kene make sure munirah boleh lipat badan munirah supaya muat dalam sila ayah.

bile dh besar sikit, ayah kate munirah berat, so boleh letak kepala je atas kaki ayah.. badan pn dh panjang... nak lipat pon dh x muat nak letak dlm sila ayah..

bile balik keje, mesti tunggu ayah depan pintu... dulu kecik2 ayah naik bus g kerja. ktorng dok Klang, ayah keje kat KL. Everytime ayah balik, akan jerit..."yay yay ayah balik.." pastu amek tiket bus kat tangan ayah..buat jadi duit tipu2... huhu

dulu x tahu pun nilai duit. ayah kene travel lame nak g keje kat KL. naik bus plak tu. x igt plak van pegi mane... maybe ayah tinggal supaya ibu boleh gune anta Salim ngan Aman g Solat Jumaat. lame2, duit tipu jadi satu bungkus. mcm ala2 monopoli gitu..ehehe

dulu selalu tdo depan tv. pastu xnak bangun masuk tdo sampai ayah kejut. Lepas ayah kejut pon xnak bangun jugak, sbb nak suro ayah dukung sampai katil... manja kan anak ayah ni?? [ayah x penah tau..munirah pon x penah bgtau...]

bile dh besar sket...ktorng pindah KL. Ayah pon makin sibuk. Tp ok je... sbb bile ayah balik, mesti ktorng makan same2 dlm satu dulang. Kadang2 ayah masak dinner. Suka sgt bile ayah masak. Tp ayah masak ikan bilis masak kicap je. Sedap sgt. Ibu pon kene blaja masak ikan bilis masak kicap dr ayah. Hehehe... kat Kl, pagi2 n ptg2 mesti ikut ibu g anta n amek ayah. Ade 1 van je dulu. Kalo ayah bwk g keje, nnt ibu xleh nak gerak anta ktorng g skolah. Seb baik dh dok KL, office ayah pon 15 minutes je from home. so, ok.

Bile besar2, ayah xde umah weekdays...sebab Ayah keje kat Indon. So jumpe ayah weekend je. Hari Ahad ayah g jogging, pastu ktorng same2 g makan breakfast kat kedai mamak [ayah je g jogging, anak2 die naik kete g kedai..hohoho]

Haritu time kat hospital, tetibe dengar ringtone seseorang...SEJIBIK mcm ayah punye. Xde org ade ringtone tu sbb ayah buat die punye sendiri [ayah spent a few days edit lagu yg die suke..dan dah bertahun ayah gune ringtone yang same je..]

Balik je hospital terus call rumah. Ayah ade kat umah. Munirah bgtau pasal ringtone ayah. Munirah btau jugak, munirah rindu ayah. Tp ibu n ayah buat x tahu [ibu ngan ayah malu2 kucing plak ngan anak die yang makin romantik ni...^_^]

Sekarang dh bulan June, lg sebulan 3 hari lg, Munirah akan touch down di KLIA. X sabar sgt2 nak balik...

Nak jumpe Ayah, Ibu, Salim, Aman, Adik and Ifah...nak jumpe jugak bakal kakak2 ipar ku... hehe

[I promise I'll be kind...:P]

Ya Allah, u've given me the best parents in the world, the best family in the world, the best life that I can think of. So Ya Allah, bless them...care for them as they have cared for me since I was born, until today...never let them astray, place them among ur servants who are faithful. O Allah, please take care of them...

Uhibbu abi wa ummi.... wa usrati..

My 21st Birthday

As of 20th May 2009, I'm officially 21.


Legal age?

Eligible to vote??

Can drive a Uni car??

Hoho...such a weird feeling being at 21 year old. It's like growing up all of the sudden. I like being the small cute one. But now, I can't really do that can I?

The little mo0n has to grow up.

to a??

Big mo0n??


not physically though... coz I am now vertically challenged and limited. So, can't do anything about that.

can't grow sideways either as if I do, I'm in big trouble.

So, growing up??

hm... I guess I have to start to think big now. Have to start thinking of others, and try to live my life, not just for myself, but for others around me as well...

I'm posting this entry 10 days after my birthday, which was a blast as we had a massive combined all-those-born-in-May-party ^_^

tq my sisters for that...

and I got lovely presents as well...

tq my sisters for that...

and I gots tonnes of hugs and kisses and wishes and posts and entries...


tq my sisters for that...

see how much I depend on my sisters?

But three of them are leaving me (and my friends) soon. It's time for them to proceed to another stage of their lives, which I'm most happy about...and most sad as well.

I can never replace them in my life...

to my sisters, you know who you are...

luv u guys loads!!


Thursday, March 19, 2009



got this word from my happily-not-so-recently-married friend. She was having her exam last months hence the 'infection'. Mine is in 98 minutes at the time I wrote this. Hahaha... quite a nice activity actually to do just beofre an exam - blog-hopping. Since I haven't been updating my blog that regularly, blog-hopping is one activity that I do to use up all the time that I haven't got. [Ooops!]

Owh, then for the last 10 minutes, I was voluntarily abducted by someone else's blog and did more blog-hopping...hahaha

Then the phone rang. [Telefon...telefon berbunyi!!!]

Ok. So signs and symptoms of examingitis
1. Blog-hopping
2. Phobia of lecture notes
3. Nausea (without vomiting)
4. Grumbling sounds in stomach (probably due to skipping breakfast but can also occur with breakfast)
5. Anxious about time
6. Always think of what to wear
7. Think of things to do after the infection

1. Solat
2. Solat
3. Solat
4. Go to the exam hall and get it over with.

ps: if symptoms persists, please consult a psychiatrist.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Things to do..

Bismillahirrahman, ar-rahim...

Ya Allah, ya Kareem, Ya Zal Jalal wal-Ikram...

Allahumma Rabbi yassir wa la tuassir ya rahman, ya rahim..

I have a few things to do currently...I think I have the time to do it all, but lack of the semangat to do them...

Ya Allah
Tuhan yang di tanganMu hatiku
DitanganMu masa depanku

Hanya Engkau sahaja yg dpt menenangkanku
yg dpt memberkatiku
yg dpt menolakku terus ke hadapan

Maka ya Allah,
tenangkanlah hatiku
berkatilah masaku
jadikanlah amalanku bermanfaat

tunjukilah ya Allah
tunjukilah jalan menujuMu

Tak ingin aku kembali kpd zaman jahiliyyahku
ya Allah,
hindarilah aku dr masa silamku
jgnlah biar ia kembali
biarkanlah ia menjadi pengajaran utkku
biarkan ia menjadi pedomanku
agar aku terus mara ke hadapan
agar aku boleh menemui ya Allah
agar aku boleh bersama Rasulullah dan para sahabat baginda
agar aku tidak terlepas 'train' itu...


Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Coolness in policemen...

Do you ever watched movies or series which involved high speed chasing, involving unmarked police car, policemen not in uniform, chasing around with lights (hmm..what do they call it??) on top of their car roof? Do you think it's cool?

Think if you can see it live. When you're on street. Somewhat part of the scene.... even cooler??

Hoho..just had that.

Was driving...(my last driving lesson...I hope!) then suddenly, I saw this car coming on in the opposite direction, flashing lights to make people make way for them. A silver car without any police markings... but due to the lights, we knew it was a police car. Then... a few seconds later, we brushed (not literally of course) with a police car, this time marked. Hmm... I wonder what that was about?

Hmm... police not in uniform?

Perhaps...homicide? Armed police like SWAT team or something? I don't know.

But living in UK for the past 1 year and a half... I feel very much safe when I see a policeman, or policewoman. There was this one night, I was walking with my friend towards my other friend's house, and I saw a few men talking in the dark. I was so scared and I was already reading a few ayah from the Qur'an... then a policeman came out. He was making rounds. And he actually said hi to those men... just checking out that they weren't doing anything suspicious... maybe he had notice how scared I was... Lol.

Thinking again... a policeman watches over everything that he can see. They were trained so that they can recall the number plates of a car that passed them by... they were trained to be very vigilant whilst on duty... and I bet they do that as well even though they aren't on duty.

There's one policeman that I love. He is ever vigilant. He sees everything. Even when I'm under my comfy duvet, trying to sleep when Fajar almost came...and I haven't done my tahajjud. He can see not only what we can't see, but He knows what lies in the future. He knows everything in the past. He is ever Watchful. He is Al-Baseer... subhanallah...

He watches over not only because He cares, but also so that we know, that we are being judged by the Just. He looks so that we are conscious about every action we take. So that we make sure that everything that we do, is in line with what He likes. So that we leave the things He dislikes...

But, do we realize all this? Do we realize that we have Allah who oversees us? Who knows everything, even what's in our hearts?

Huhu...sometimes I fail at this..I fail to realize when I'm doing something bad without other people knowing it, there is someone who knows... I failed to realize that even when other people don't know what are the good things I've done, there is someone who does.

See? Allah watches over not only to punish us. He is Loving and Kind... the most Loving, and the Kindest... and He watches over to see how good of a Muslim have we become...so that He can bless us with His rahmah..and invite us into His heavens...

Subhanallah... subhanallah...subhanallah...Allahu Akbar

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Ward day and...tremor??

We have hospital day on Fridays starting this semester. The cool thing is, I'm psoted at Bradford Royal Infirmary - a hospital, therefore, there's a lot of patients. Sadly, we get to see only one or 2 patients per day (it's usually only for 1.5 hours) - 9am til 10.30. It has been 3 weeks a.k.a 3 Fridays. Had to take cardiac history for the first two. And, last Friday, we manage to do cardiac examination. And I was the first to do it! I can't remember what I was supposed to do. (Haa.. another point, please don't expect to have teaching in the morning. You should have revised it the night before, after attending last week's lecture)

Luckily, I remembered that we start the examination by taking the patients hands.. look and feel - is it nice and warm? Any bruises, tenderness, redness, scars etc? Then look at fingers - splinter haemorrhages, tar stain, Osler's nodes, and another thing that I can't remember right now. Look at the joints for signs or arthritis... soem spot (maybe due to old age). Then do the pulse checking - pressure, rate, regular/irregular, radio-radial delay, collapsing pulse(only cardiologists do this, according to my consultant who is an anaesthetist).

Then we moved to face. Again, look and see. Any redness around the cheeks (it's suppose to be a sign of something, but can't remember what..) Eyes - anaemia, xanthal -something2-, white ring around sclera (owh..I gorgot this one as well), jaundice, (you can check your cranial nerves while you're at it as well!) Then the tongue - central cyanosis, thrush, ulcers, salivation (dehydration).. what else??

Owh, another thing, then you move on to checking the JVP - not suppose to see it on normal person. And my first patient was normal ;)

Huhu...and, as you noticed, it's a hell lot of stuffs! And this is just the beginning. My friend continued with the chest area - oberservation, palpation and auscultation. [We'll need to do all this in 6 minutes by next year..]

Whoa!! Cool! Now I feel like a doctor - putting stethoscope on.. hihi.. and the patient was happy to see us with our 'toys' - colourful.. hihi..

We heard a swooshing sound up in his aorta. According to my consultant, it's either aortic stenosis or aortic sclerosis. It's common for old people to have aortic sclerosis... but if it's stenosis, there may be some problem to anaesthetize him later (he's due for an operation in 6-8 weeks!). Did him a favour didn't we? [and we thought we were stupid not able to hear the LUB DUB sound..(or is it Rabb Rabb sound?)]


Understood my ECG after 3 cardiologists explained it to me.

Manage to do cardiac examination though if it was an OSCE, I would have failed.

And critical appraisal.

Now - need to solat subuh as this gadget called RubyMerah has taken my fingers away from me for the past hour.

Solat, ma'thurat...BREAKFAST :D

New Drive


I know it has been months since my last post. Sorry for that. But these few weeks has been really hectic... I wasn't in the mood of being a medical student, what else updating my small little virtual world. Well, maybe it wasn't hectic..just the fact that I wasn't in the mood. Huhu..

Then, just after ambil wudhu' for Subuh..which I got so tensed as when I came out from the toilet, DH AZAN!!!! :(( X sempat nak buat qiyam.. dh la semalam pon camni jugak.. haish~~ [tu la, sape suro dh bangun time alarm tdo balik lepas tu??]

ok ok, my fault.

So, sambil2 tunggu azan abes, these fingers were fast to click on people's blog... I was blog-hopping, visiting a few friends and seniors, who each wrote beautiful pearls of their lives. Then i realize, I haven't contributed much to other people. Hihi...my bad.. again.

So, I've come out with a new resolution (after getting back my medic student mood after crossing the finsihing line of Critical Appraisal) - to just blog.

Well, the reason I stopped one time ago as my FS account has been growing...and it has been too public. Don't wanna have that. And, this I don't promote my blog to anyone...I guess I can blog whatever I want on this blog..

Another reason is that, I can find points to ponder upon where ever I go (almost wehere ever I go) now... so why wait until I can relate to a verse in the Qur'an or a hadith?? It would be excellent if I can do that.. but for that, let's just write and ponder k together k?


wait for my future posts!